Curve ball

A very dear friend of mine once said, "Life has just thrown me another curve ball". Today I cannot think of a more fitting thing to say about my recent life. Think about it. The ball is coming at you, you're ready to catch it, it's in the bag. Then suddenly (well, it SEEMED sudden) it changes course, and you're wondering how you missed it, feeling really stupid. From another angle, you see it going to someone else. You observe without much concern, seeing that it's not headed to you, you look the other way, then BAM! It hits you upside the head. There again. Feeling stupid again. How did I miss that AGAIN? Simple. Curve ball.

Of course I know that change is imminent, but you know, it's getting so close, I am looking it in the eyeball, and I am beginning to feel the ruffles of panic.
It's not that I don't like change. I actually like it. What I am facing with some of these curve balls is that they are about people I love, people I am close to. I doubt it has ever been said of me that I am a clingy person, but I am suddenly feeling, I dunno, clingy. To humankind. It's weird.

I had asthma for three days, and I wasn't around many people. So when I got out of my "hospital ward", I just wanted to hug everyone. Then a bunch of people took off for the week, just as the curve balls were coming in. I am wanting to find some human to unload my insecurities on, but I keep hearing that little voice telling me to take it to Him. And I know things will be fine after I do that.

So I guess I'd better go and do that.